Janice's

2012-01-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

A whole new life started in 2010 when we got out of school and went to college.
2010 is an eventful year. Suprising, exciting and a lot of learning and adapting.

Then comes 2011, I must say 2011 wasn't a very good year, but still i'm thankful for everything. Grateful family and friends are still together, and of course very grateful that i finally finished A level.

Now, i really really wish 2012 will be a better year.

Because it's the last day

2011-12-31T14:53:00.002+08:00

I have no urge to blog at all these days. No thoughts no updates in life. Outings with friends? You can see them all in facebook/friend's blog.

Hence, i ngeh ngeh find a reason to have myself blog and the reason is *deng deng* today is the last day of year 2011! Not creative at all right my reason. -.-

Time to change for better again! But i never do things according to my own plan. Don't know since when i stopped planning things seriously already, cos forever fail plan ma lol.

Also i used to have much bigger dreams, note the words used here is 'USED TO', meaning dreams change too. Too much is holding me back towards me big dreams, and they shrink gradually that now they disappeared. So i'll hold on to my smaller dreams now. Janice is not the type of person to do big things. #foreversmall hahaha did i just created my own meme by copying #foreveralone meme LOL

Anyways, happy new year to all! :) Let's make another great year!

Forgotten password.

2011-11-20T17:04:00.007+08:00

It's been so long i didn't sign in Blogger that i almost forgot my password. Haha!

I've finished my A2 exams. Feeling happy but a friend and i both agreed that though happy, we didn't feel as satisfied as we were when we finished our AS exams. Maybe it's because A2 is much harder and we think we didn't do well enough, didn't work hard enough and weren't as 'semangat' as we were during AS. However, what's done is done anyways. Can't change anything so as usual, we'll all hope for the best and pray for the worst. :)

So it's after exams of course we have to do something fun to celebrate! Well actually we've been celebrating after every paper lol and after this last day of exam we don't know how to celebrate already because watching movie and going to karaoke is like a usual thing. -.-

BUT we still came out with something. *happy face*

Buffet Shabu-shabu with the girls :)

Cycling/picnic/walking at Taman Pertanian in Shah Alam :)

How much i miss cycling! but i'm so gonna get a cooler bike next time :)

I LOVE this photo! We look so happy, well WE WERE. :)

When you're bored of studying, you blog.

2011-11-06T23:47:00.003+08:00

Exams are still going on, and on, and on. Not ready for the worst week coming but yeah, no one can stop time ey? So i guess i have to brace myself get ready for the 2 consecutive days of harder/needs more studying papers.

I'm going back home very soon. One and a half years in Sunway just went by, i mean, just like that! When the class has just warmed up and classmates were getting so close and with lecturers as well, it's time to part again. A friend said the feeling is like going to those 3D2N camp, which i totally agree.

Anyways, i always believe we will meet again. Well that's what i tell my friends when i moved from Miri to Kuching and when we finished SPM. Guess what? I haven't seen them in person since we parted. -___- Well on the positive side! We all meet in facebook right? What do you think facebook is for?

ANYWAYS, i'm always thinking what to do after i return home. It's just 3 weeks, can't do much like finding a job but i don't want to live the 'eat-shit-sleep' life for sure. If i had known about the volunteering at Teach for Malaysia's training institute thingy earlier, i'd so much love to do it! Even it means i have to start right after my exams! :) It'd be so cool to do something like that ya know. (Plus suet li is there i could see her in person and we can become friends LOL just kidding truth is i wanna see and know everyone there because they're all great people who do great things) However, I couldn't and i don't want to back out on our Pangkor class trip and air tickets going back home is booked and EVERYTHING is planned. So yeah, i'm going home. :)

Unless someone sponsor my air ticket to come back to KL on 1st Dec that is. Any generous orang kaya out there? ;)

2011-10-24T15:12:00.002+08:00

3 more days till A2 exam starts!

Of course i'm so damn nervous and scared and all but a part of me is happy because it means i'm about to finish A level :)

Another transition point in life, just like when we finished Form 5, another decision time, another reflection time, another vacation woots.

I don't know what the future holds for me, i hope it'll be fulfilling, rewarding and i hope this time, i can really figure out my real passion. :)

Is it a teenage thing or is it just me?
When you're 19, you feel like nothing is impossible.

I can't wait to explore much much more about life, the world and people,
before i settle into a stereotyped job and everyday-same-routine life for my whole life.

Read and forget

2011-10-17T11:27:00.003+08:00

They say when you had a dream, if you tell someone it won't come true. If you're a close friend, probably you've heard me saying this, i don't believe all these actually but well, it doesn't cost a thing telling a friend or two about your nightmare right? Plus we can laugh it over hahaha.

So yea, i had a nightmare yesterday night. WORST NIGHTMARE i tell you. WORST. I was so damn scared and it still haunts me after i wake up OMG. And i don't feel like talking about it and laughing it over with a friend right now hence typing it out here. Well, unless you ask me maybe i'll tell you but it's really weird.

Okay okay! Patience! Here comes the nightmare.

I dreamt that, i was on the brink of marriage. OMG RIGHT! Yes on the brink, not yet married. ALMOST. And i haven't got to the worst part.

I was going to marry some guy i barely know! They say it's my own cousin but i don't know him and WHERE GOT PEOPLE MARRY THEIR OWN COUSIN ONE! *faints*

That wasn't the worst.

The worst worst part is, my parents my relatives my friends were all okay with it! They were happy for me and all! *dies*

Ok i've said it out. Please don't come true wtf. Sorry i'm quite disturbed by the whole nightmare shit. As the title recommends, please read and forget. Kthxbye. Your help is very much appreciated.

Taking Control.

2011-10-06T00:10:00.003+08:00

There has always been an 'evil' side of me, well, i think everyone has their own 'evil' side too, that we hate and hope it doesn't exist at all but it's just impossible to get rid of it.

Wait, or is it just taurus(s) have this kinda feeling? OH WAIT, OR IS IT JUST ME?!

But you know what, at this very moment, i don't care to tell the whole world about my flaws.

So, i was wondering, why is it so hard for me to be discipline and take responsibility of my own studies? A2 exam is just 2 weeks away, and i mean the ULTIMATE FINAL DECIDE MY FUTURE A2 EXAM. And now? i'm feeling, whatever.

No don't get me wrong, i want all the As. I want my parents to be proud of me. I want to prove myself. I don't want my parents' money to be wasted just like that. But, whatever.
You see the problem here? I just don't get why i'm feeling, whatever.

I don't see why i should let something i want(and most of the people i care/care for me want for me) go without working for it. I want and I WILL use this 2 months to grab my As before i leave A level. Promise i will work hard. Doesn't matter the result. :) Won't let the lazy and procrastinator EVIL side get on me.

I'M 19, AND I'M JANICE. I CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS.

SO NO MORE WHATEVER, YES I WILL HANDLE IT. I'M TAKING CONTROL, OF MY LIFE. AND FOR NOW, STUDIES IS MY LIFE.

This Saturday.

2011-09-24T22:01:00.005+08:00

Had a great girls day out with Cau & Chee at Mid Valley, or The Gardens if i wanna sound more high class HAHA.

Basically just a catching up session with mam mam Cau, and did the thing we do best, which is 'mam mam'. :D We met up for a nice lunch, strolling around in the mall gossiping and siasoi-ing ourselves around, meow-ed all the way long and then went food hunting AGAIN.

You know why i love life in kuching more than life in this big city? We can spend the whole day out without getting exhausted. Honestly, i really don't know why is it so tiring, it's just merely waiting for the bus and a little more walking. So it's my stamina problem? Or maybe the emoness of spending so much on just one day out (esp on nice food) adds on the fatigue? Really, you can have all the nice food you want in this big city, but there goes your money. Guilty pleasure i call it. Just like shopping.

Met Shin in Sunway Pyramid before heading back to hostel. A short meet up it was, but i'm glad we made it. :) Long time no see lah dengan orang tu. And he gave me Starbucks. I can have Starbucks without spending rm20 why not LOL. But me and Chee both agreed that i'm so cheap, to drink someone's leftover Starbucks. -_____- But thanks, anyway.

Went to Borders at The Gardens for the first time and fell in love with it. It was spacious and comfy inside there, and there's a Starbucks outlet in there omg? I mean, you can bring a magazine/book (no need to buy it) and read it at Starbucks and every 20 minutes, Borders' staffs will go and collect them and circulate the magazines or something i don't know lah, didn't read the thing properly.

The cheapest book we found in there is RM8.50, less 20% somemore! They were all books by Jane Austen, ie they're classics. Was so tempted to buy some! However i didn't get any at the end because i'm reading a classic now (Jane Eyre) and it was so tough for me *wipes sweat* it took me ONE whole year to read it, giving up a zillion times in between and read it all over again. Hence the decision is to switch back to a normal fiction book after Jane Eyre till i'm ready for another classic. I hope Jane Austen is not as tough as Charlotte Bronte though.

The atmosphere inside Borders is awesome it triggers the reading mood, i feel like buying books from every single genre and author and read books forever. Hah. And if only i had one day to waste, I'd buy a book and sit in the Starbucks in Borders and read all day long. (Don't go other Starbucks, very noisy can't read :P )

Random conversation with Chee about future.

Me: Where do you wanna work after graduation?
Chee: Don't know, anywhere that has a job for me. You?
Me: *laugh* Wait till i've decided on what to study first, then i'll tell you.

LOL

Also i found money extremeeeeeeely important. Until i concluded that our lives would be VERY tiring in the future, because we have to work hard to earn as much cash as we can, and it feels like it's never gonna end till we die. OMG what have i become.

AND lastly! Needa cut down on outings and dreaming and all other things to add A LOT of time to studying from now on! 'A's are so damn hard to maintain, what are so great about them anyways hmphh :( But no matter what, i still want my 'A's.

The power of 'A's. The power of kiasu and kiasi.

Till next time. :)

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2011-09-05T02:04:00.002+08:00

It has been so long, since i last saw a message at the Cbox that is from someone that i actually know HAHA. Since when Cbox is for strangers ONLY to leave their messages? Well, can't blame anyone too since there's nothing much to comment or say about my blog posts anyways. All the boring stuff, just pure writing, random thoughts. No nice/silly pictures or funny jokes etc. :P

YP! Just to let you know, this is my 227th post, and i started blogging like MUCH earlier than you did? Now you've reached 400th post and i'm still here. Hehee.

Anyways, i survived the one week holiday without going back home! For the first time i'd stayed. Well i barely survived LOL. Because college and hostel is quite empty, it was nice and quiet and all but still, a bit creepy eh? And everytime i do anything that's related to fun and not studying this guilt feeling came. Well mock exam is in 2 days but honestly, if you ask me how many chapters i've left that i have not covered, i'd tell you i have 3 subjects not covered. Life is just great.

Till next time.

Good.

2011-08-12T23:01:00.004+08:00

What's good?

Life's good. Friends are good. Food is good. Sleep is good.

My AS results are good. The puipui SIM YIAN PING got good results too! So happy for her :) Ok back to my own results. I'm very very satisfied with my results. So i think it was luck again. During the exam period i blogged about this:

"I tried hard and i'm willing to accept whatever results i'll get, it's like getting results that 'match' my effort put in, which means NOT getting results

1. So bad that you don't deserve, like you got so nervous during the exam and your mind went blank or you make tonnes of careless mistakes.

2. So good that you think you don't deserve as well because you know it was luck."

But i got my As. Expected 3A 1B or even 2A 2B but i got 4A. What is this again? No no don't get me wrong, i'm really really happy and thankful for getting good results. But my percentage uniform marks are 90+ then i was like WHAT?! Though the marks are not my raw marks(real marks for the papers) but still, i managed to squeeze in the top 10% category of all candidates sitting for the exam worldwide.

WOW. So everyone did 'ok only' too? -________-

P.S: I don't mean to offend anybody okay. Please don't feel offended. AND I AM NOT BOASTING OR HAOLIEN-ING.

I just think that, it's not wrong to be happy when you got good results. When others ask you about it, of course don't boast and say stupid things like 'i am so smart i got straight As' but another thing worse than that is go around telling others "Awwwww my result sucks! I got 4As. But everyone else also got it!" WHAT IS THAT.

What if the person was aiming for Bs and was happy with his/her B results, UNTIL you go in front and say those shit. Argh. Come on. Not everyone can/want to go to top universities. Not getting straight As is not the end of the world. Of course, you think i'm saying this like it's so easy because i got my 4As. But for now, i think there is more to life than getting As.

I love music. Well who doesn't? But i'm never good in playing the piano. Despite learning the instrument for more than 10 years, my parents were still complaining that i can't play a song, completely and nicely. I luckily passed my exams till Grade 7(always at the just pass category) and failed my Grade 8. It was a regret in my life but i think i didn't deserve a pass too. So what? No Grade 8, i still enjoy playing the piano.

2011-08-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

So i found out, i should post something new.

However, i've got nothing to say. Therefore, i shall dedicate this little post to my little friends doing ACCA, wishing them all the best in the coming Progress Test. :)

If you're reading this and is an ACCA student, yes, this is for you. :)

Oh maybe i can talk a bit about life so far. BUSY. Well, wasn't THAT busy but i do things like a snail, so i always have A LOT of work to do. Plus i procrastinate much, you all know that. No need to elaborate on that more to annoy you more.

Time is against us. All my lecturers are saying that.

And i figured, if you really really really want something, you have to work really really really hard for it. I think, i could do that, but i changed my mind easily. If someone ever asks me "Are you sure this is what you really want?" i'd hesitate. 100% sure i will. Then i'll panic, think of it again, couldn't get the answer, get scared, and then give up. Because i'm so selfish i don't wanna do everything for nothing. Tada! LIFE.

I wonder how much i'd missed in life because of that. Anyways, still appreciate life that i have right now. :)

2011-07-16T22:50:00.005+08:00

Argh! The emptiness! It's killing me! It's like..like..empty! urghhh. :(

I couldn't describe it in words, i couldn't tell anyone, even if i can, i don't know who to tell! Posting an emo status in facebook is not an option because 10 people will come asking what's wrong and jia you and all. And THAT, i appreciate soooo much but it'll make me feel so guilty that i'm making people who love me so much worrying about me.

Of course i know a few of you out there still read my blog but at least, it's a more private place and a hell lot less known than my profile in facebook because all our posts in fb appear in everyone's news feed like an article in the newspaper! LOL

I'm trying to type something here wishing that it would make me feel a liiiiiittle bit better. Hope it doesn't annoys you too much.

Love,
Janice

I'm busy too.

2011-07-10T01:32:00.002+08:00

It was a busy week. And it's gonna be like that for the coming weeks i guess. Hopefully i can manage my time better, like, MUCH better, so i can fit everything i wanna do in my schedule. For now, my pile of homework and reading are there waiting but facebook twitter and even blogging look more attractive to me. However, i'm glad i spent the entire afternoon studying with Chee in library and at the foyer. :D
Of course we weren't studying the whole time, i think maybe just half of it? But i'm glad at least we were trying to be productive. Yay!

Sunway has been more like home since Chee came. And i'm liking it cos she took pictures of me looking all so hardworking, of course i looked hardworking, she took the picture just before my bio test which, i had not finish studying. HAHA.

I know not much people aare reading this thingy, but i was thinking whether should i sign up for nuffnang. I have no traffic at all but maybe, just maybe, i could get a RM50 after 2 years or something? Well, no harm right, though the return is slow. And i'd be supporting a Malaysian company as well! Boost Malaysia economy! :)

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A lot has happened this year. Our own 416 Sarawak state election, and now Bersih. I'm so proud nothing really bad happened throughout the election although some childish acts and chaos were unnecessary. Hope there're no more lies from the candidates to the people in the future too though. Be honest, be sincere, please. I'm proud the Bersih rally was a peaceful one. However, i saw in twitter that people are shouting "hidup pakatan!" at Bersih and like others, i'm not amused. Please make sure you're clear on what Bersih is focusing.

Anyways, we Sarawakians/Malaysians rock man! We are such civilised people.
Proud to be a Malaysian :)

I am perasan.

2011-07-02T15:46:00.006+08:00

I realised i have a lot of friends. *perasan*

The sentence above is the only sentence related to the title of this post.
Thank you.
I'll talk about my life so far in this post. Well it's not like i blog about the everyday happenings in my life, my posts are usually either confused or EMO, and dull without colourful fonts and photos. Sorry readers, if there's any out there.

Let's start!

Transformers 3 is AWESOME! Watched it with classmates and saw A LOT of A Level people in the cinema too haha. I never know i enjoy robots. But they're really cool! And the RED FERRARI inside. *drools* And the girl inside so HOT! I'll droooooooooooool all the way if i'm a guy ohmygosh.

I'm missing you all friends back in kuching! I saw the Damai pics, i wished i was there. I saw the gathering at Station One pics, i wished i was there. The gathering at Station One looked so fun! I miss hanging out with everyone, because we seriously have so much to catch up! I've not seen some of you in ages well i mean, in many months and i wanna know how u all have been doing, i wanna ask so many questions! :D

Studies. Welcome back to studies life, after almost 2 months without classes ie having exams + holidays, WELCOME BACK. Catching up in Chem class, sleeping in Accounts class, couldn't answer questions in Bio class, all are back to normal. It's Sem 3, our last sem! I'm feeling old, especially when the July'11 intake coming in this Monday. :P

Bestie aka sweetheart aka Chee is coming to Sunway! I banyak happy! :D I wanna sneak her into Residence to swim or just come hang out, i wanna bring her to Rock Cafe the place that she'll start to hate in maybe 5 months but cannot lose, i wanna go Mid Valley to meet Caulyn with her etc etc. <3 But now i'm feeling more sad that she's leaving Kuching than excited that she's coming here. It's like the feeling i'm sending her off at Kuching airport and myself is staying back.

And again, i can't wait till end of July when yianping and weiyin and friends coming to visit! I wanna go KL shopping! XD I need shoes! Clothes! Everything!

Elders had a great time reminiscing their past and we younger ones enjoyed the stories as well.

Had a great time 'touring' an orchard at kampung with family. (and ate a lot)

S2 trip to Genting! Every bit of stress relieved through screaming my lungs out.

Kuchingnites are always kuchingnites, no matter where u study. UK or just the other side of malaysia.

I wasn't lying after all when i said i had a lotof friends. Maybe not as much as yours, but there's enough love around for me, overflowing actually.

2011-06-21T00:37:00.003+08:00

I wanna write i wanna write i wanna write!

Sorry this whole being-at-home feeling just automatically turns the lazy-slacking mode on.

I had fun during the weekends too, despite didn't make it to Damai with the gang. Well i couldn't rate fun so i'm not sure whether Damai with friends is more fun or weekend with family and going to a dusun is more fun. Obviously i want BOTH, yes i always want it all and it's usually possible and easy to get them all. But not this time.

Anyways, i'm still having the 'hangover' of couldn't join the Damai trip and emo-ing about it. -.-

Guess i'd come back to write more on this post later~

E X A M G A P

2011-05-30T01:27:00.005+08:00

I was bored with facebook because i think i've seen every new post and read every new comment within 3 minutes the comment was posted. Not sleepy yet hence i'm here giving you a new post.

I'm having the room to myself tonight and my roommate left her laptop with me, said 'just in case you need to use it'. YES i really 'need' it, been using it for facebook and reading everyone's blog. Oh did i mention i went to xtremepapers like, once? To check my answers for Chem paper 1, the TWO sets out of 20 sets probably.

So maybe i should delete the thought of bringing my laptop over next sem for Chem project(EXCUSE, GOOD EXCUSE to bring the laptop).

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Let's talk about home.

Gatherings. Everyone's back and attending gatherings and are tagged in photos in facebook and gossiping their way to Spring/Dessert Paradise/*insert location name* in our beloved Kuching city, and i'm still stuck here. I miss home already!!

With a one week gap till our next paper, which is this coming thursday, it's...TORTURING. I would appreciate the one week gap if it was between Chem paper 2 and Bio paper 2 okay but for 3 remaining MCQ papers? Totally killed my study mood and started the idle and procrastination mode. It's not like we can get all crazy and forget all about exams but we just couldn't study as hard as we did for the previous papers. People who are staying near went back home, no dinner kaki. Only one dinner kaki left, how pathetic. We both even sigh when we meet downstairs to go dinner. *SIGH*

HENCE ADD ON TO MISSING HOME!! -____________-

Idle mode.

2011-05-26T23:33:00.006+08:00

I clicked the 'new post' button and arrived to this page where i'm supposed to..you know..type something, obviously. But i have one facebook tab and another loading fourfeetnine's blog.

After 15 minutes, i came back to this tab, and typed this shit. -.-

Ok i'm just being lame.

Feeling..empty at the moment, am lucky to have my roommate's laptop to borrow if not i really don't know what to do, because i'm sure i don't wanna study tonight. It's been so long since the last time we all had this 'nothing-to-do-now' feeling because of all the exams going on obviously.

I'm feeling good actually, about the exam i mean. I studied hard, and i think i did ok, of course i won't get 100% or some world prize. But i think at least i tried, i tried hard and i'm willing to accept whatever results i'll get, it's like getting results that 'match' my effort put in, which means NOT getting results

1. So bad that you don't deserve, like you got so nervous during the exam and your mind went blank or you make tonnes of careless mistakes.

2. So good that you think you don't deserve as well because you know it was luck.

Well well, despite the fact that i'm slacking or being idle now, i still have 3 more papers to go, just for your information LOL.

Just 3 more, and time to go spend some quality time with friends, without having chemistry or biology or stats as a topic of our conversations.
And just 3 more, it's time to go home again, and meet all my loves of course! :)

And before i end, congratulations to sweatlee! She graduated! She'll be a world changer :)

P.S: Mount Holyoke is so nice! Me studying there, is near impossible, so if i had a daughter and the $ in the future i'll let her study there haha!

P.P.S: I don't dare to link fourfeetnine and sweatlee anymore, just in case a comment comes again and i don't know whether if it's them. But their links are at my blogroll anyways. :)

Pre-19

2011-05-08T00:11:00.004+08:00

I still have one more week as an 18-year-old.

Yea it's always during these kinda time that i realised time flies, and my one year of life is gone, just. like. that.

One can only be 18 years old for once in their life. And sadly, i think i didn't do anything more, as in something....that is out of my comfort zone? That is very unforgettable(in a good way of course lol)? That i could very proudly tell my grandchildren(if only i have of course LOL)?

But i'm just a normal person. I am so conventional i rarely step out of my comfort zone. RARELY. Don't ask me why though, i'm not sure too.

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Okay enough of all of that. Pre-19-year-old Janice is telling me to stop continue rambling and self-apologising.

Pre 19-year-old Janice decides to think differently. :)

I think, there's nothing wrong even if i've not done anything BIG when i'm 18. Well, i still have one week if i really wanted to do something. But forget about that. I think it's ok. Because:

1. At least i lived. and at least i go to college. Though i might not give my very best in academic, i still haven't failed any paper.

2. I'm just a normal person, come on. Yea i might have BIG thoughts sometimes and dreams can come true but hey, be realistic. When you didn't work hard enough, don't expect miracles. I'm not Blair Waldorf, nevermind if i don't go to Ivy Leagues or can't be in Forbes as one of the most powerful/richest/influential person in the world.

But one thing i have to do for myself. For so long i couldn't get myself to study harder than i do now. One thing i must convince myself, that is, getting As is not everything, but not getting As, i couldn't live my dreams either.

Oh goshhh. I'm turning 19.

2011-05-01T21:42:00.002+08:00

Now what?

I've done everything good/average.

Never too good, never too bad, i think?

Never tried my best, never totally given up on anything.

What is the thing that i fear??

2011-04-14T15:11:00.005+08:00

http://sweatlee.com/2011/04/13/the-spirit-of-mf

Now THAT, is a Malaysian. Another of sweatlee's post, inspiring as usual.

When can I become like her?

Teach me, how to be grateful of everything i have.
Teach me, how to start doing something for the future.
Teach me, how to keep my head in studies, concentrate, work hard enough for my studies, so I have the knowledge, the ability, to do something for our country in the future.

Complacency kills dreams sometimes.

p.s. i don't know why the link thingy didn't work.

2011-03-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

I don't get it how people can get so emo, or is it just because i am cold-blooded?

Sweatlee.

2011-03-13T00:29:00.004+08:00

Hey all. It's been AGES. I'm updating this thing to tell you all my friends that i'm still alive. I couldn't get myself to say i'm doing just fine these days because that'd be lying. It's a sin. But then, it's also a sin too to make the people you love/love you worry about yourself if i'm gonna say i'm NOT fine at all.

After the long-winded intro i bet you all are now more confused whether i'm fine or not. -.- Ok guys, i'm fine, reallyyy, don't worry 'bout me, even though not everything's right, but most of them are still okok, so i'm fine. Life still goes on. It's the 21st century, we have to be strong, to survive.

The Japan earthquake saddens me, i've nothing to do with Japan, ok maybe i'm buying some Japan made merchandises like PILOT pens -.- they're 'Japanese' right? So yea, i don't know exactly why, but i feel really sad about it, it hit me more than the New Zealand earthquake and Australia flood. Hope everything will be alright very soon. Besides praying for them, donating cash and posting our condolences on facebook, there's really nothing much we can do. Sad. Now what else is coming in April?

Hey you guys saw my title? Haha i just read her blog before this so i decided to title my own blogpost sweatlee. Yes random. Because i love her, i just love the way she writes, i like it that she speaks out her own views everytime(without beating around the bush) and i like it that she's damn patriotic! I think it was her, i mean, through HER BLOG that i started to wish i could study in the U.S. All the liberal arts education thingy and stuff, i don't know much about it, but i think i'll love the system. But sadly, studying in the U.S. was something near impossible.

And by the way, she's a LIEW too haha! I'm already feeling proud just because we have the same surname. :) If only she reads this. =O

Oh and lastly! maybe you wanna try reading her blog too? :)
Oh and last last! Take care everyone, all the best in life. Stay strong, keep going on and i miss you all.

Till next time!

Lack of thinking THOROUGHLY.

2011-02-07T00:03:00.003+08:00

真是的。笨死了。

When i decided to take Alevel in Sunway,

i think it's good that i don't study in kuching so my parents don't have to drive me to and from school/college early in the morning. But it never crossed my mind that they don't have to drive me to school sooooo early anymore, i can just CONVENIENTLY hop on my dad's car when he goes to work everyday and he can drop me off school on his way to work. OR i can even drive to school myself but that is VERY unlikely to happen lol.

i never thought about all the goodbyes we had to say to each other everytime i go back to kl after holidays. damn that is harder than i expect.

i never thought about how mahuan is it for my mum to cook just for my dad and herself. they don't eat wan. -.-

i didn't think about all the packing i have to do. getting sien of it already.

i didn't know it sucks a bit to sit alone in the plane without mama beside.

i didn't know i don't have the chance to step into karaoke for months.

but anyway, i'll still bring mama headache sometimes if i'm at home. LOLLLL so i think mimi would be a better everyday company for her. :D though mimi does NOT do any housework eherm :P and papa's busy everyday, so it doesn't really matter if i'm at home? i don't know..but it's good that he doesn't have to ask uncle go fetch me from SPRING anymore -____-

going back to kl in 5 and a half hours time. BYE AGAIN PEOPLE! take care see you all in June! :)

OMGOMG AS is coming. so NOT prepared. if i screwed it really have to long piak :((

Chinese new year 2011 :)

2011-02-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese new year everyone! :)

For the ones who're not with us in Kuching like old times, we miss you.
For the ones who came today, thank you.
For the ones who helped around today, thank you very much. I really appreciate it.
For the ones who I could've met tonight but didn't, sorry. I really wish i could. We all seriously have to catch up quite a bit.

For the one who left me today, or i'm the one who walked away? Any would do. Thank you, thank you very much, sorry, very sorry, and i love you, I really do. I didn't want to leave, but it's time, the time has come for us to part.
Thank you phone, for this one year plus. I tried my best, to keep you alive so we could at least celebrate our second anniversary on this coming valentine's day. But you are too weak, i was too careless and impatient, so, yea, I'm so sorry.

Changing phone isn't the easiest thing in the world, especially when you don't intend to change one but you have to.
SE W595 white+red my phone. Goodbye.

2011-01-25T22:36:00.003+08:00

如果我有一个明确的目标，很想很想达成的目标，那该多好。

日子，也应该比较容易过吧？

不过，在寻找自己的过程中，也能学习很多，所以不可以complain！

多３天！多３天又可以回家了，你也太幸福了吧, Janice？

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'Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth'

Still on the 'look down as far as i could' stage. Hopefully years later i could tell my story 'with a sigh' too, that i 'took the one that has made all the difference'.

我也太没用了吧.

2011-01-18T23:22:00.003+08:00

我也太没用了吧.

那天,又来一次那种super 奇怪的感觉. 是心酸？孤单？我也不知道. WAHLAO 可是做么会哦？这里这么多关心我的朋友, 大家互相扶持, 不久又可以回家过年. 就连我自己都不知道我缺什么.

********

我知道了。我这个极度没安全感的人，只要有人在我＇附近＇，同一个城市，我就多了一份安全感。可是，却不愿意抽时间陪他们，要大家来，但过后又懒惰meet 他们。我只要那份所谓的安全感，那个有人在身边的感觉，那个你知道你有困难时有人会伸出援手的感觉。

也未免太自私了吧？就好像要别人绕着你走的路，和你一起走。但是，又有谁，会这么空闲，永远绕着你，跟着你走？每个人，都有自己的梦想，自己想走的路。

天下无不散的延席。

记住，到头来，虽然家人朋友心里都牵挂着你，但谁又能陪你一辈子。所以，到头来，大家都还是一个人，自己一个人，自己做决定，走出自己的路。

:)

I shall never type chinese again. Took me so long -.-

Music :)

2011-01-13T18:19:00.005+08:00

Today, I wished i'd learned violin. Was at the foyer doing homework after class(some kind of miracle which i hope will happen everyday) when i heard the 'mini orchestra'. Got so curious and started to track where the lovely music came from.

What appeared in front of my eyes, was a group of students, about 10 or maybe more, with violin and cello and music sheets in front of them. (Not sure if there's viola, cos i cannot differentiate between violin and viola shame on me who did music theory for the past 10 or 12 years).

I stood there alone, like a weirdo, enjoy listening to them practising. Sometimes i thought violin is boring because you only play one line, one rhythm while you can have two lines on the piano, one rhythm and one to accompany the rhythm so it sounds deadly nice. Sometimes i think cello is VERY dull, it's so huge i thought it's hard to carry around, and the notes soooooo low-pitch that it sounds like..i don't know..an old man? Or some music from a horror movie?

But. There's always a but. Today i was amazed by how the two instruments can combine and produce such amazing, such lovely music. Yea we've heard a lot of these actually in our lives, in radio, in shopping malls, in some formal dinner, during prize giving ceremony etc. But i've never seen it, or even if i did, i never paid any attention on how it can really work.

The students' serious expression when practising shows how enthusiastic they are when it comes to music. I wonder why i've never try performing for others, or group up with others playing different instruments to 'produce' such lovely music too like they do, like the brassbands do? Yea i know i kinda suck in playing the piano but, i don't think all the students i saw have a Grade 8 distinction in violin right? And now it comes back to the same question. Why did i failed my Grade 8? I was always thinking, short fingers is the reason, or the excuse?

Now it reminds me of the past, when i was in such 'musical' atmosphere at least once or twice a week in the piano school. Walking pass the rooms i could hear the violin, piano, cello, whatever instrument you name it. I totally took it for granted, it was a routine. Now that i realised, it was a blessing too. And i kind of miss it.

Thanks papa mama, for the piano lessons that i've screwed up a lot.

10 years resolution

2011-01-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

10 years later, I want to:

1. have a real white christmas with my loved ones, Joo and Carol~

2. NOT lose contact with friends i knew since secondary, no matter puipui men or shanshan or honey or darling <3

3. still have this blog so i can reminisce my past haha!

4. make papa and mummy proud, by whatever means.

5. be prettier, lose the kg(s)

6. speak better and more fluent ehemenglishehem*

7. be able to earn enough to feed myself decent food and buy myself pretty shoes of all kinds

8. gain some confidence

9. sponsor a child?

10. drive everyone out to limteh (Chee i know you like this one)

11. be immune to goodbyes, cos they'll be so often, so common just like some daily routine or what.

12. think that the world is still damn beautiful.

13. AND lastly, of course it'll be cool to have my fat hand holded by someone who thinks I'm as pretty as *insert name of the prettiest girl in the world*

:P

2011-01-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking,
maybe, just maybe, i tried too hard in asking myself to try too hard. Get it? get it??

Maybe i didn't even realised that i didn't like it at all but i somehow convinced myself that i do and wanted it all these while. Maybe i took things for granted. Not everything applies to the if u like it, it becomes easier and u can do it well 'concept'.

Decisions, are hard to make. Damnnnnnnn hard.

01.01.2011 Happy new year! :)

2011-01-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

Okay before it's too late ok before it's too late ok before it's too late!

Must post something today cos it's New Year Day!

Let's see. What should i say. Actually A LOT passed my mind A LOT of times. When i was in the car on the road trip to Albany, before i sleep on any day when i was in Perth, after we took tonnes of photos at a winery's rose garden, when we said bye to kor that morning we left, when i was in the plane going back to Singapore/coming back to Kuching, when i got so frustrated waiting at Changi airport.......

But then, procrastination. AGAIN. ya i know my new year resolution for every new year is to overcome this stupid thing called procrastination. Obviously it's my own problem but i've always got tonnes of excuses like ' it's christmas! hey we have family gathering! hey we have christmas carolling! hey how long i didn't see my friends already? hey how long i didn't hang out with my friends already? ' The list goes on and on and onnnnnn....

Well like i said in facebook, except all the homework undone(let alone any revision or what), my holiday was really great! But everytime when a superb awesome great holiday comes to an end, you'll have this not-the-best-feeling-in-the-world feeling. LOL

Anyways, i'm saying those because i'm leaving home in a few hours and classes are starting in 2 days hence the emo-ness :P

Well, at least i updated. Happy New Year 2011 guys! ;D
(first step in overcoming my best friend procrastination :p)

2010-11-11T18:09:00.002+08:00

I'm here again! What a creative start of a blogpost -.-

Nothing much to say just, exams are near, but classes still go on, rushing syllabus like tomorrow's the CIE A Level exam, can't 'digest' everything learnt in a day, forgotten everything learnt before at the same time. So it's like i don't gain anything but lost everything O.O

Argh don't know what to say lah, go cook. Bye.

2010-11-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

I've got something to say. But i kinda forgot it a bit. Well, i guess i'm still able to spill something, to make this a more proper blog post than just a sentence.

Prejudice. Pure prejudice.
Since when i became such a person?
I feel so bad, i don't know what to do.

I got this '10 Ways on How to be Happy' from Straits Time ages ago which i pasted on the wall of my room, in Kuching of course. I remember one of it is, eliminate. Eliminate what you don't like, stay away from them in your life. But heyyyy, it's not fair to them right? Or what if my closest sibling or closest friend love it, they also have to eliminate it from their lives just because i'm not very comfortable with it? So NOT fair. What if we turn it around and i was in their shoes? Just a random thought.

What am i doing here? Thought i should be studying my ass off every day and night? What happened? I'm totally not motivated. I'm always intimidated, by, everything. And i don't know why but i think some people are watching over me and i....DON'T enjoy that feeling, it feels like...being scrutinised. That sucks to the max!

I've been trying too hard to not judge others, to not care about being judged by others(if it really happens lah), and to be optimistic about everything. I feel kinda lost now, in nowhere. Maybe because it's so late now like 1am? So i get really blurrr and don't know what i'm talking about. So in conclusion this post is not worth your time reading so please click the close button now.
Thank you very the much.

Hope my blog will appear in your blogroll once in a while too~

2010-10-28T23:32:00.003+08:00

Hi!

Just to keep this blog alive, needa type something here.

Let's see.
I'm still procrastinating. yeah yaya i know i know. Don't needa say much about this boring topic that pops out in all my blog posts, every single facebook message, facebook posts etc.

October's almost gone! November's coming! *gasp for air*
So i finally realised, there's no such thing as learn slowly, take your time, enjoy the learning process, get the most out of it. If there were enough time, i'll only start procrastinating. I do that even i don't have enough time duh. It's always me chasing over time, running and gasping for air behind time trying to be on par with it. It's always lecturer's rushing to finish the syllabus. What's important? THE BIG EXAM.

Four months in KL! Time flies at the speed of light. -.-
Let's list down which topics are covered and compared them next month.
1. Biology- Chap 1-4 and respiration
2. Chemistry- Finished physical chemistry
3. Maths- Finished pure math 1 and statistics 1
4. Accounting- Reach accounts for clubs and societies.

December holiday. Die die must study at least a biiiiiiiiiit of all subjects, okay no, should be revise all subjects and do LOTS of questions. No life. Now even if i spent a Saturday out with friends i feel guilty for not studying. Hi A Level, my 'wise' choice. Wonder what kind of person will i become when i come out 'alive' after A Level.

2010-10-12T22:47:00.003+08:00

Hi! Finished chemistry test today. Think i screwed it up again. Only 2 chapters and i'm already dead. GREAT. I'm a genius. I don't dare to imagine how finals will be like.

My fringe is no more Tun Jugah-ish! :D But it's so long now that it's gonna cover my eyes, not literally NOW, but VERY SOON. Since it touches my eyelids already LOL. I salute girls with nice fringe every single minute.

Just can't study tonight. Chem test over but i don't feel happy and relieved. BIO coming soon. Let alone finals for all subjects.

Passion! Where's my passion to study?! MUST find it back quickly!

During Unite's Passion Quest, Elaine asked, what's your passion? Write it down on the passion card. I couldn't write a word. PATHETIC. Oh wells but others also hardly wrote anything, maybe they have their passion they found theirs, just that they didn't write it out. They keep it deep inside their hearts. :)

What's my passion? Maybe i don't dare to find it out cos i think i wouldn't do anything to actually try to achieve something. No life. Must find life. Don't know how much time i need but hopefully not too long. What's yours?

Jia you people. In life. :)

2010-10-11T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hi! This is so random, i don't know why i'm here. I wanted to blog in chinese but i think there's something wrong with Chinese Star in my lappie. When i open it, the whole lappie's gonna be jammed and i can't do anything. TOO BAD. :(

Hi guys, i'm still alive. :) Thank God. I never change, procrastination is my life. Day dreaming is inevitable. I know what i should do, i plan what i would do, but i ended up not doing them too. Sometimes i do something that i don't want to do. I'm nuts -.- Others can do it why can't i? I know i could do it too and i want to do it but i'm still not doing it. Whoaa, this is so confusing. Maybe the urge, the 'want' to do it isn't enough to make me move. Patutlah, i'm so heavy what. LOL.

Okay, so we had a conclusion here. I need motivation. I have! My mum talks to me, my friends supports me, Sunway sends my progress report or something like that to my parents. But i'm still not motivated. O.o Screw me. Fine, i don't wanna continue this anymore.

Let's blog again tomorrow. Wanna bet i can do it or not?

A new post?!

2010-09-03T08:14:00.003+08:00

Give me your shocked expression to see a new post in my blog people.

Hi! I actually didn't plan to blog cos

1. I'm too lazy.
2. I'm busy. (not really, just that i do things so slow that it took me 2 hours to check my email and facebook LOL)

But since today i'm so happy that I woke up earlier than i expected i would, and i actually had the time to wait for my as-slow-as-me de rice cooker to boil my eggs for breakfast. Woke up earlier means got more time, and I had wished to spend the time on homework or revision but somehow i decided i don't wanna start my day with Vectors, let alone all the Chemical Bonding, forces of attraction, shapes of molecules WHATEVER.

So i think that explains why i'm here? And i don't even know why i need to explain that haha. I thought while waiting for the eggs i could blog but now, it's my hard boiled eggs waiting for me instead. Oh great, even my rice cooker is faster than me now.

Less than one week to holiday! To go back HOME! :D I AM EXCITED. But i think when i get back i wouldn't be that excited anymore cos i'll start to take things for granted again. Like..it's home! I've been here all my life, what for so excited? But when i'm away from home, it becomes like, OMG I MISS HOME, i miss everything at home, my bed my room my tv my piano my jam in the fridge even my slow streamyx. Yea i never change, just like i never change on studying last minute(or even NOT studying).

I seriously miss kbox, must go kbox at least once ok my puipui men~ 2 months no kbox and i felt something is missing haha, plus i cannot sing in the shower anymore, i cannot sing in the room. I paiseh *blush*. So siasoi ok, and we cannot disturb our roommates studying right? Ps: I'm scared she'll have nightmares if she heard me ahaha! But puipui men won't, you guys are immune to it already right? XD

Needa post something.

2010-07-20T20:00:00.003+08:00

Thanks to our Yian Ping , she's into Liang Jing Ru's old songs lately that brings me some nostalgic feelings as well. GREAT. Now I regret for not bringing the Liang Jing Ru's n Leehom's and SHE etcetc 's cds here already. Lols :( Use youtube? Takes quite long to load sometimes, broadband also can't too sometimes. I miss the time we use cd, where u put it in, play it then it'll keep playing playing and all u do is enjoy all the songs played while doing other stuff then didn't realised it'd played twice ady lols. Yea can download lah but takes time too, and my iTunes here so messy :(( And! I don't know how to dl a whole album. I only can dl a song at a time. Laugh all u want. -.-

I saw Leehom's 'Heroes on Earth Concert' DVD at Popular that day. Why still rm89.90?? Cannot sales kah? :( I wanna i wanna get it. Maybe not this month, this month needa save for something else. A lot to buy. Like...MILK? haha. And and it's sales and season clearance like..EVERYWHERE! OMG. Can u imagine? 30% 50% 70% off pasted everywhere. Hopefully I can still get it next month, or next next month =P PLEASE...don't let other people get it kay? :)

Note to accounting:
Please, you know i love you. But please don't steal my love towards bio for yourself kay? I love u, bio, chem and math all equally. Let me spend the right amount of time with u all kay? :)
XOXO.
From J.

I'm not dropping accounting. Wish me luck ! The 'football' match between reasons to drop and the reasons to continue ended up with a draw. So..continue wins. Cos, of no reasons.

2010-07-15T17:42:00.002+08:00

i hope every bad news i received today and everything bad happened today stops here and tomorrow will be better.

maybe i'll update about this sometime. for now, i've no time. even i have, i'm not in the mood of blogging yet. i'll rather wander around fb trying to catch up what's happening around. :) keep smiling. i'm not the commit suicide kind of person don't worry. ~

Here.

2010-07-06T15:43:00.003+08:00

Hi! This is a very long post for my blog already i tell you. XD So much i wanna tell you all about my life here! :D I can't fit everything in a facebook status that's why this post exist. wiee! lols~

But first! I miss kuching =p Yes i do don't ever doubt that. I miss kuching people. Yes i know you know i love you XOXO. They got wantan mee over here, erm it tastes okok la.. i heard quite a number of sarawakians complaining it's horrible lols but for me okok la..You know me la! As long as it's FOOD then i take -.- But our kolo mee is really much better. I never know our kolo mee was sooo special that you can't find it elsewhere but sarawak. I thought all 'mee' we get in kopitiam(s) all around Malaysia is like our kolo mee. LOL DON'T laugh.

Okay enough of kolo mee. Now what. Hmm..i meet Tracy when i was checking in to the condo on Saturday. I met Gladys when i was walking around Sunway University College aka Sun U with my relatives on Sunday. Then Tracy and me meet Gladys again that night in the shuttle bus back to our condo from Pyramid. On monday, we were at this hall and i sat beside a girl, which i later found out is Elaine from St Teresa that Pingu told me before. Such coincidences! Eh when meet tiok Kuching people around here so happy one you know! And my roommate is from Sibu, Sarawakian again! Woots haha. But i do meet people from other states and countries too lu..from Indonesia and Vietnam. Then with this, you all know my new friends already lah. ;D

Sweetheart CHEE i know you sure will suan me about this. However, i will still tell you ahaha. I went to Pyramid 2 nights straight. If tonight go again then it's 3 nights straight. Before that, i went with my parents once gok and! We bought a PINK colour de pail and i needa carry it all the way to the main door and to the roadside to get taxi back. OMG. You guys can imagine la ho -.-

The shower thingy is put very high. I can take it down but after shower i just left it hanging cos too high i can't reach to put back. T_T Actually if i tiptoe can lah but very hard ma ok. T_______T

The shuttle bus is cute haha but very little seats, everyone stands. I CAN reach the handle thingy when standing ok! *winks* but i needa grab it with 2 hands if not sure fall down like mam mam.

Digi line di sini sucks :( Twice already it just putus when i was on the phone. Then ALMOST putus a lot of times. Sien i still bought Digi campus :((

Our fridge is full of fruits and milk. Everyone has got apples at least. Wahh sound like healthy people.

Till now, i saw many lenglui liao in campus.

We get lost often here, not that it's super duper big. It's actually cos we don't know north is where south is where like that lu. Hopefully tomorrow onwards won't be late for class hehex.

Classes start earliest at 830am and end latest at 430pm. I start at 1030am tomorrow muahaha can sleep till 10. Abaden i start at 1030 straight till 430pm no lunch break. GOOD. giam pui. But tomorrow till 330pm only cos we'll only start Malaysian studies next week.

EE! i think i wanna type my timetable here. Not that you all wanna know, i know i know..but i have nothing to do now.
MON- 930am-430pm no lunch break! omg i just realised this one
TUES- 830am-930am, 1130am-430pm
WED- 1030am-430pm
THUR- 830am-330pm no lunch break as well -.-
FRI- 930am-1230pm
Even though no lunch break but we can eat in class one! Wiee!
I like friday! Finish early! Can go pyramid lepak! -.- Or can straight go sleepover at cousin's place :)

2010-06-28T12:37:00.002+08:00

3 more days. Gonna leave home, again.
My cousins ask me how long can I tahan this time and have i checked the hostel's bathroom and toilet's condition. I ask to bet if i'd quit and how long i'd stay lu. 2 weeks? 2 months? Like world cup -.-

Ee..don't know what else to say. Need inspiration to blog, need motivation to study hard and smart, need strength to take care of myself when away from home, need courage to try out new things, need confidence to believe in myself, need knowledge and confidence again to make people believe in me, need perseverance to not log in facebook every single hour, need money to shop, need food to eat, need water to bath and wash stuffs.

GG style writing X)

2010-06-20T17:46:00.003+08:00

Tata~ wake up upper east siders, but unfortunately nightmare doesn't end yet even when you open you eyes.

Poor C, I don't know what happened but it seems like it upsets my sweetheart quite a lot. BUT, it's good that you know you've got all of us here if you ever needed to talk. No need to tell each and every one of us lah of course..duh. If you think Zhong cong ming Jan will understand and can help you in this problem, then talk to her lu..which you did i think? Me happy ;D And if you meet problems like too obsessed with GG's Chuck or Nate then can talk to me lo...haha. Omg you got soooo many people loving you and are there for you that you can even choose who to talk to, so sweet ~~ hahax We won't get jealous one okay? Like if you talk to Yin about something in school and didn't tell me, I won't be mad. Or you give Pingu a gift by your own on her birthday, I won't be jealous cos you didn't get one personally for me on my birthday. If you sms Cau aka Mam mam whole day long and I didn't hear from you for a week, I won't be furious too when i saw all her messages in your inbox, NOT like i'll go check your inbox and read your messages lah..that's kinda rude i think (own opinion ok =P) unless i've got permission from the owner. :)

You got my point or not o? Yea it applies to all of you, yes you, You and YOU. All my friends out there. PinguYinCauLilyPangAwongVivi etc etc ALL of you.

Cos i used to feel guilty when i forgot about a friend's birthday. I feel guilty for not sms-ing a friend FIRST, i always REPLY only. I feel bad for not talking to a friend in msn for a long time. I'm scared to talk to a friend in msn cos his/her status is busy. I don't dare to call a friend cos i think she would be busy and i would disturb dao her. I feel guilty for not calling a friend cos i thought my credit would habis if i called her. I don't dare to ask a friend's help (a friend that i havent contact for quite a long time) cos i'm afraid he/she would think that i only remember them whenever i needed help.

But hey, in 18 years of our lives, how many people have we meet? TONNES. And all of us have got our own things to do, our own dreams to pursue, our own homework to do, and especially now that all of us are gonna go separate ways. If i were to ALWAYS keep in touch with each and every one of my friends, i doubt i would even have the time to sleep eat and poo. -.- I don't know why i'm saying all these but it just came out..lols..I just wanna say, even i don't sms you as much anymore, C, you're still my friend, good friend best friend whatever lah haha. And Jan, i seldom talk to you in msn too, but it doesn't mean i forgot you or whatever liao, we're still friends, rite rite? =P And Lily, it's been a long time since i last saw you, but i still remember how good were we last time in school, HONEY..haha. And lots more of you i need to catch up with but if i don't or forgot, very very sorry.
But i do remember you and the great times we had together. :))

Maybe there would be an awkward silence when we gathered again next time, maybe i'd chg to better or worse(hopefully won't la, i'll try my best hehex) and you guys'll think i'm not the J you know anymore, maybe i don't wanna do siasoi things anymore next time HAHA (but now i still enjoy doing it with you all pui pui), maybe i'll think differently next time that we don't have mo qi anymore. Who knows what'll happen in the future right? But i'm glad we are friends, i'm glad we had lots of great time together, i'm glad i'd joined you in doing siasoi things, i'm glad. XD

So yea..thank kiuk you all. Muacks hahax. XOXO everyone. Wieeee =D

NEW post :D

2010-06-17T16:14:00.002+08:00

I promised Yian Ping to update my dead-for-so-long-already blog. So, here you go! =D

Hi. I am Janice. I update my facebook status more than i update my blog. DUH OBVIOUSLY.
So far i think i'm the only reader/visitor to my own blog cos i need the blogroll. :) Yes, i often read others' blogs, i read all their posts, i read right after they update, but i myself never update. *clap clap*

Now i'm gonna update my blog, but i don't know what to post about. That's why you're reading all this DUH and LOL thingy right now. Yea i feel like crapping, oh wait. I am! DUH. LOL.

FINALLY decided to go Sunway for A levels. After all the drama dilemma whatever. FINALLY finished my piano exam. I'm so glad i sat for it, though kinda screwed it up a bit. Well, just hope for the best~ :) Thank you sooo much to my piano teacher the principal the examiner the piano everything. Me happy sekarang. :)) For those who haven't decided where and what to study *ehempinguehem* , jia you n good luck! I know, decisions are sooooo hard to make, seriously. =S And you're always welcome to come study at Sunway with me hee.. And for those who decided to go some place where they have lots of paddy fields *ehemloiloiehem* , i still hope you'd come to KL but if you are sure with your decision, me support eu too~ XD Wish you all the best and take care! We'll miss you. :)

All the best to all me friends, wherever you are and whatever you're doing . =D I'll miss you all and thank you so much for..being me friend, for dropping by in my life and gave me great memories that i can always bring with me, whole my life wieee =D <3 XOXO

Okay, i guess that's all for now. Till next time. *smile and wave goodbye*

2010-04-09T16:26:00.003+08:00

BORED T___T

Wishlist:

1. Camera ? O.O

2. Do the braces thing in a private clinic

3. Study outside kuching
but study outside= rm50k? Or more?
study in kuching= rm3k? =.=
I mean A levels only.

4. Go kbox.

5. Drive out. Of course needa improve my driving skills 1st =.=

GREAT. I feel damn BAI JIA now. SPOILT KID that people will pui pui pui! at me when they see me.

Life doesn't go on...yet O.O

2010-03-31T22:10:00.002+08:00

1. Yian Ping, Lily, Vivien, Liew Ying went to ns. Miss them, especially itu my outing buddy da ben dan. =P

2. Sweetheart Chee has been VERY, SUPER DUPER busy in her life. And i can't help a bit, none of us can i guess? Makes me feel more like a P I G everyday stay at home doing nothing. Yea, absolutely nothing.

3. Because i don't do my only homework, which is practise for my piano exam.

4. And even the Maimunah spirit also kinda..die down already. No more volunteering to sweep, to mop. =.= Mama says she's gonna fire me and send me back to indon.

5. I heard people saying BL was on fire halfway typing this post/chatting/facebook-ing. April fool or what? Aidi, it's not even 12am yet already come fool me? Ouch. Swt.

6. I'm not ready for the interview. Obviously. Lols. Documents? Nope. What to wear? Don't know. 1 Malaysia? Eee what's that? Ok just kidding, go PBK whole year if don't know 1 Malaysia then people'll feel sorry for Cikgu Bhaludin cos he had a student like me.

7. I can't 'proudly' tell everyone that i got my P license already. Cos..i haven been driving since the driving test. P already up, but i never sit on the driver's seat yet. Yea cool right? -___-

2010-03-23T23:17:00.004+08:00

I AM sick of ALL THE application forms. =S
The urge of apply anything! apply as many as possible! already gone for long.

Filling forms aren't as easy as i'd imagine.
But the worst part wasn't filling all the details over and over again.
The worst part is, whenever it reaches the section to choose which course you want to study.
The lists usually go like this:

....engineering
....engineering
....engineering
....engineering
....economics
....accounting
....business

THE END

-or-

....management
....management
....tourism
....business

THE END

That is so sad. When I bersusah-payah fill all the details, typing my lovely name again and again, I see engineering only. I wasn't that into accounting too, but it's still more preferable than engineering. So..yeah..just click it janice. No matter what course, just apply, if you get a scholarship, everyone'll sayang you lots. For saving $$ for papa and mama. And you can walk with your head held up very high till you feel like 180cm. LOLS. But struggle and have to work very hard to prove yourself by maintaining your grades all those. O.O True or not?

And and! Still got things to rant =.= If we need to write some essay talking about our career aspiration, oh gosh, I'll need panadols. I wanna choose some business degree but when it comes to this 'essay question', I'm dead. I don't even know what's that degree about, what are we gonna study if we take that. How to write career aspiration. T__T

That's when I realised I didn't like it but i still wish to apply for it. Yes it's stupid. But I was hoping for some miracle to happen like..I was so damn lucky that I got the scholarship, and I'll HAVE TO love what I'm gonna study and eventually will develop interest in it blablabla...

Blogs =P

2010-03-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

O.O a few new blogs found XP

Everyone's a blogger! haha..sounds like a family =)

Guess my blog list's gonna get longer and longer and longer.... ^^

I actually enjoy reading others' blogs. Well don't ask me why arr..cos i'm not sure too. haha

And I've come across a few private blogs as well, but not gonna add them in my blog list la hehe..cos no point right? =) Later people really go click and can't see anything they feel disappointed. =) But I understand some bloggers want privacy la..yeap..no problem haha..

My thoughts:

I think people make their blogs private cos their blog is like..their diary. And i still strongly believe that..diary is a VERY private thing that belongs to ourselves only hehex. Sometimes, you just can't possibly tell someone or anyone EVERYTHING o.

Also, i enjoy reading my own diary haha, sometimes i enjoy it more than reading newspapers lols. Despite the fact that i don't write much haha..i neglect it just like i neglect my blog swt! XP

Oh wait, am i encouraging people to start writing diaries? O.o But it's really fun la..no cons one..only pros ^^

Well, except one con. YOU'LL HAVE TO HIDE IT WELL. haha XD

2010-02-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was..a LONG day.

Mentally more tired than physically. Swt. Forgive my lousy english. I don't know how to say it the right way.

Tomorrow! Onwards. Alone again. I kinda forgot how's the feeling already. Needa get use to it all over again. Too much of these i leave you leave he leaves she leaves thingy these days. Bo bian ba..gonna deal with it. Maybe next time i also the one leaving? Who knows..

Gonna have HUGE changes in my life? I guess? haha..not going to school is already a HUGE change isn't it? The thing is, i don't quite know where will i be and what i'll be doing in the next few months. SO NEAR. But still don't know. So can't prepare earlier for anything right? Now THAT's the scary part. Lols. So damn insecure. *bad words* haha.

Kun Yong! Jan! Chern! are leaving le T__T i missed like..A LOT of times hanging out with them. ISH. *long piak* soooooo sorry. Take care o! 一路顺风! (copy from chee's blog =P lazy type chinese haha) =)

2010-02-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

Change is good.

Change is bad.

Deal it.

Face it.

But how?

*SWEAT.*

Can fast forward till i finished piano exam, got a P license and started studying ma?

Cos i think study might be a way to keep me in pace, have a brand new life (good one of course lols), no need think so much, just swallow the book and go on with life. O.O

2010-02-21T01:13:00.003+08:00

New year's over. Just like, that. Lols =.=

Back to normal. Eat, sleep, online. Ya what do you expect? LOLS.

E-na-fer IS e-na-fer!!

Lappie's a bit sick i think.

Good songs are nice.

Nice songs are good.

Ya so lame i know.

Haha.

Is this even an update?

Definitely not emo i know la. =)

Anyone who understands this post, I salute you.

Cos i don't understand too.

Maybe i wrote this in my dreams.

So i should get back to sleep.

Haha.

Good night. =)

I'm not 18 yet.

I'm seh kia.

And seh kia don't know many things.

And don't care anything.

Just do it.

Ops that's nike de.

Mine should be 'Just Have Fun'.

Dress? haha

2010-02-12T00:50:00.002+08:00

Me: Mummy, looks like i've got a lot of dresses this year for cny.

Mum: Yea, good! No matter how tall how short how thin how fat, girls need to wear dresses anyways. *=D*

Me: Oh wells.. *=.=*

I wouldn't say i don't agree with mama, but there's still this thing i shouldn't forget. It's like this.
I was at Spring when i saw this super cute dress a 'model' was wearing. Found it on the racks and tried it on. It was..cute? I mean the dress..and mama said "ok, it's nice. let's get it."

So i got the dress. And, was so HAPPY. =.=

The next day, for some reasons we were at Spring again. Saw the dress again, on the 'model'. And just realised, WOW, it should be worn like THAT. Then the dress looks nice. Was quite suprised why didn't i realised that the day before. Maybe was too into the dress itself liao...

I was thinking, if i was the designer, i wouldn't really want a girl like me wearing the dress, kinda like...spoil my design =.=

and i feel kinda...guilty. =(

but i really needa apologise to the designers of all the clothes in my closet. "I'm so sorry, i know i'll spoil your dresses/pants/skirts/shirts etc, but i've already got them so i have to wear them and i'll wear them. You guys don't want a naked freak walking around right? It's about the health of the public. Vomitting and fainting isn't good for our health ohh. And it's not good for their eyes too. And their eyes don't deserve to be tortured. So..yea..sorry i'm gonna wear your designs."

2010-02-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

rant rant rant. is it all teenagers rant a lot or it's only me? omg if it's only me then i'm a problem teen! *faints*

sorry i'm not perfect.

what the..tuut am i talking about?

I'M NOT EVEN NEAR PERFECT.

wait.

If perfect's 100%, i guess i'm somewhere at 0.00000000000000000000000000000000001%.

10 FEB 10

2010-02-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

It'd been a long day. And,

sorry to disappoint anyone, i'm not gonna write 'bout my day. O.O

*PUKE* as if anyone's dying to read my blog.

YES i've always been lazy. Lazybones! =.=

I consider taking the trouble of putting every line of words in different colours as a handworking act already.

Well, what do u expect? from people like me. =.=

2010-01-30T15:23:00.002+08:00

Aiyak!! Next week FEB ady O.O

Time still flies even though i'm 'rotting' at home everyday lols.

There's some tiny problems here.

I don't know how to react in those kind of situations. I feel..insecure..paiseh..always scared I'd do the wrong thing and ruin something that might be VERY important to others and..aiyo..I don't know how to say la.

And and, wait. I decided not to say it out. =P

Oh and lastly, good luck to all who're learning driving!! *ehemawonglerpinguehemmetoohehe*
Jia jia you o!! Aza aza fighting!! =PPP

2010-01-30T15:10:00.006+08:00

I ENVY all those who have more than one siblings. YES I am talking about Kah Soon. Having 6 or 7 people in the house is just...pure FUN..and..and..幸福.
p.s.> i was inspired by the photo of anna wiping her tears away when their sis gets married. *aww..sooooo sweet i wanna cry..*

But my eyes are dry.

CNY's coming. Fast come fast go! I needa do STUFF. lols! =)

2010-01-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

I'm inspired by Lina's blog post. Ahahah XD

Her new year resolutions are almost same as mine lei..in some ways..heee~

Wishlist

2010-01-21T00:04:00.003+08:00

1. Wear braces.

2. Not stopping in the middle of the road when driving =.="'

3. High heels that fit. People help me find size 3 1/2 or 34 perhaps?

4. Any kind of footwear that fits. High heels low heels middle heels stupid heels clever heels etc

etc =(

5. Lose 5kg. I know i know it's not enough.

6. Check eyes & buat new specs. Cos i don't want to be blind.

7. Nice thick smooth curly hair with nice not-so-curly fringe.

8. Motivation.

9. Knowledge.

10. Inspiration.

11. Trinity College Foundation Studies SchOlaRshIP. Just kidding.

12. Ok we're getting too far. Stop here first. Till next time.

2010-01-16T20:49:00.003+08:00

cleanser toner emulsion cleanser toner emulsion cleanser toner emulsion......

Gosh I'm talking 'bout skincare O.O

But why pimples are still coming out =.=

And...in the picture library in skype...jing ran got one picture with the name 'shorty skype'!! So gonna faint. Ouch.

Emo stuff of the day:
Can't I do something right? Can't i don't say something wrong??

BIG ThAnK YoU

2010-01-14T20:27:00.003+08:00

Wait..wait..I'm not done yet..haha. Needa read the html thingy slowly...so long didn't read already. Read till hin hin. =S

I said I'm gonna post a BIG ThAnK YoU right? hehe..Here it is! =DD

THANK YOU JAN!! for the btemplates.com. haha

And and!

THANK YOU YEN SHING!! for opening the zip file or whatever you call that. haha

I'm back to blogging I guess? O.O

2010-01-11T11:19:00.002+08:00

I don't know what I wanna write. But somehow, I clicked 'new post' seconds ago. Yea I know that's so lame. =.=

Someone help me in changing the blog layout please. *begging eyes* haha. Just tell me the websites to find them, the blog layouts and I'll post a BIG 'Thank you' for you haha, as if anyone wants it, post also no people see cos as if anyone's reading my blog. ( well, except you, you and you. LOLS)

I was just thinking bout Lina the day before and I met her in Hock Lee yesterday. Seriously. WOW. Such coincidence. O.O

Oh ya!! And and..I slept at 11pm yesterday!! Woots!! I can't remember how long ago since I last slept at 11pm =.= All I remember is sleeping at 130am or later. Gosh.

This. That. Stuffs.

2010-01-09T16:12:00.003+08:00

I forgot how to change the blog layout =S

I'm not really in the mood of blogging cos my diary's not updated. =.=

I think the KL trip was REAL FUN. No regrets.
p.s. Could have been MORE FUN if more people went though. *wink*

I don't feel that 'familiar' feeling I had before when I logged into blogger just now. And almost forgot my password. Lols.

Mimi's been sleeping whole day. Ok this is random.

I'm gonna start piano lessons in 3 days and i need to go through an assessment test, which is like..WOW..i haven't been touching my poor piano since forever and if they don't assess me.... X.X

People are starting school. Ops I mean college or uni. =.= UK AUS KL KCH. Everywhere.
But i still online everyday and wake up at 11am. O.O!!

I need English tuition. Is A level maths same as Form 6 maths? Maybe I would enrol myself into maths tuition like Pingu suggested. *shrugs* Who knows what'll happen..

But most of all, I want a PASS in GRADE 8 PIANO.

Thank you.

2009-12-25T18:23:00.002+08:00

I need to update this thing!! REVIVE it =.= let my blog drink 100plus haha =P

I think i gonna change the blog layout. =)

gonna update.gonna update.gonna update hehex

DadADaMaimAiMai

2009-11-21T08:15:00.002+08:00

Looking at the beach is just so...shuang! Peaceful, calm, tranquil. =))) (though it was kinda scary during high tide and the sea was so rough last night haha)

Haven go man bu at the beach yet, maybe after breakfast. =) Arrghh, shouldn't have brought lappie..they should have charged for internet as well LOLS! Ok that wasn't really what i wanna say =.=

Okie! Off to get ready for breakfast! Mam mam!! xP

2009-11-12T15:35:00.001+08:00

Janice needs HUGS. Lots of them.
Offering free hugs tomorrow.

p.s. Not wanna eat people tofu ok? =.=

2009-11-12T14:02:00.001+08:00

Oh yeah, we DO have a 'graduation ceremony', but it's called erm..Majlis..erm..Majlis...*something*. =.=

Fine. I don't know.

2009-11-11T22:14:00.001+08:00

And we don't even have a graduation ceremony. =((

2009-11-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

7 more days to SPM..or it's 6?? O.O whatever. It's less than a week jiu shi le, the REAL one.
Whoaaa...i didn't realised it's 'creeping' day by day..nearer and nearer..and the number of days didn't bother me much? O.O O.O O.O

2 more school days. LAST 2.

Then i finished secondary. O.O!! Ohh oh...SO fast?? I didn't realised as well. =.=
No more xiao mei mei. No more tight tight de grey skirt...what the *tuuut*...

I guess i'll miss school. I'll definitely miss ALL the FRIENDS, ALL the BFFs. T___T

Good luck in SPM. Jia you in SPM. Aza aza fighting!! =p

p.s. Anyone interested to make me cry on friday? =) Crying makes people feel good, in a way. Agree? hahax =)

今天

2009-10-29T16:22:00.002+08:00

今天，我又重新戴上了眼镜。 =)
Hmm。。象征一个开始吧。。
一定要有一个具体的改变来“绑”住我，
如果只有想法而已，一定失败。
因为，haih，是人都知道我的意志力。。超弱。
haha

收拾了心情，好好读书去。

未来的路还很长，船到桥头自然直。
明天一定会更好。 =DD

记得每天戴眼镜weiii!!! =P

Growing up?? O.O

2009-10-27T17:56:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~ Don't think too much lar xiao mei mei xD

Be yourself, live your life, love your life =DD

Hmm...hao xiang many things happening around us hor? BUT don't let the teeny weeny unnecessary stuff bother us too much wei..we humans are already soooo tiiiny..who cares 'bout my feelings? Who cares 'bout the silly little things I'm worried about?? As if I'm someone SOO important that any decision or thoughts of mine would change anyone's life. =.="

Have been thinking A LOT lately..cos seems like things i didn't expect appeared in my life and i think i've been looking at things from one side only..tsktsk..vision not wide enough, not because my eyes not big enough eii?? Lols! xP Oh God i feel like katak di bawah tempurung now. =(

Ok lah don't say i didn't share with you what i thought about. =P ( I know i very perasan, macam mana?? Cannot mei? Haha) I realised how amazingly things turned out in my life. =)))

2009-10-22T17:44:00.001+08:00

Things aren't as simple as they were before already.
Getting more and more complicated.
体会到，但还不会妥当处理。该参加'智商与情商并重'座谈会？哈哈

Went to the park again

2009-10-21T17:57:00.002+08:00

Report on my evening at the park again! Hahax xP

1. Didn't jog as much today. Brisk walking more hehe

2. Played on the swing with a..erm..about 2-year-old kid! =D He's SOOO cute...love his smile...wonder how long ago i still had the innocent laugh and cute cute smile like his =P
And i have to say he has the best grandfather wuii!! He played the slide once then went to the swing then after a few seconds he wanted the slide again yadayadayada...and his gong gong was so the very patient ho!! Holding his hand walking between the swing and the slide over and over again...NOT finish yet o!! His gong gong still has a SMILE on his face. A sweet one, a caring one...=D

3. Waited for a downpour since already 'ti o o', getting dark, a lot of clouds blablabla...so i could walk in the rain back home. Suddenly feel like wanna enjoy the rain. It could be fun and relaxing, will it? Maybe can relieve stress too!

2009-10-17T07:39:00.002+08:00

Don't you just LOVE happy endings? It's just so sweet~
Just watched a movie with happy ending =) Thanks to Hallmark..haha. Live Life. Love Life.

"I'm everything i am
because you loved me"
Just listened to Celine Dion. =)

=)

2009-10-12T19:54:00.002+08:00

Went jogging just now. There's this sudden 'happy' feeling in me today afternoon although i regretted spending the whole afternoon dating zhou gong instead of studying. Or it was the feeling of 'contented'? Not sure lah. But at least i read a tiny bit of bio before jogging haha.

Was quite suprised seeing PEOPLE at the park. Yea the park's usually mine =.= . Seriously bah, people don't go to the park, even there are, there'll be maybe..2 people? But today there were like 2 families plus 2 uncles ei. Wow...

Thank God i'm feeling good today. I smiled to everyone when i walked pass them. The kids were the friendliest among all. Lols. The uncle was shy that he pretended not to see me and concentrating so much on his brisk walking but when i walked pass him the second time, i smiled to him again and he gave me a smile as well. Woots! I feel good, peace starts with a smile babeh! =D

I was the one smiling first, waiting for others to 'reply' me with their smiles. BUT! There was this
daddy bringing his 2 little girls, just reached to park when i was almost done jogging. And and!! The girl smiled at me first before i could smile to her! OMG the feeling's great when people smile to you, even strangers. =DDD

However, i understand that sometimes we just don't feel like smiling, either we're thinking or we're emo etc etc so it's ok if you don't smile to me =) but please forgive me if i didn't smile back to you when you smiled to me. But i'll try my best. =)

Smile! =D

2009-10-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

And now i just realised. I am really so much behind. We all can't possibly move at the same pace anymore, like we did all these years.

People are talking about getting scholarships, receiving news from some prestigous universities but i didn't even applied one, i didn't know i could. Oh wait, could i?? Nevermind. It's not like i'll get one. When you lose something, you'll gain something as well, people always say, right? Hahax..Not saying i'm disappointed cos didn't manage to get a scholarship from some prestigous colleges or universities on some course that only geniuses can get and that will make them all say "Why you so hiong?". I mean, moving at a slower pace has its pros as well (though i haven't found out any yet, except a longer time to 'rest'). Lols. OMG i'm finishing secondary. O.O

Everyone is oh-so stressed out. Jia you becomes the word that appears most in conversations. Whether it's from my mouth or when we end msn chats or in good night sms(es) or in facebook comments.

But luckily my mood doesn't like to play on swings that much anymore. =D And my cerebrum is starting to like logic thinking and a little bit of positive thinking. Memorising skills are to be improved though, and zhou gong still can't resist himself from disturbing me dating my books. Oh wells, i'm still thinking of a way.

5 more weeks to the SuPerMan that awaits us.
Jia you everyone. See it even appears at the end of blog posts. Haha.

2009-09-22T19:07:00.001+08:00

哇。。。怎么喜欢当宅女去？很不像我自己 ei。。

HOI =)

2009-09-15T21:28:00.002+08:00

HIIII.........................

I just didn't felt like wanna update this thing for the last....I also don't know how many days. =.=
And i just felt like i need to update it before i myself stop 'visiting' my own blog. =.=
Cos i still come here everytime i online to check on the blogroll ma =D

Okiee.....hmm...what to say....
Life's still like that lo...what else can happen? Haha.

It took me 15 minutes to finish a song which is supposed to be like..5 minutes. I mean playing it on piano, by the way. HOPELESS sudah. Unless i learn 3 bars a week and just focus on it. BUT i've got erm..let me see. 50 bars in a song? 150 bars in 3 songs? Then it would take me forever to learn everything. NICE. =(

2nd mock's HALF over. Sejarah already killed me and i can't imagine PHY, BIO and CHEM coming together. WhOaaa... O.O

And it's all about resolutions now.

2009-08-29T01:30:00.002+08:00

Another resolution!

But before that, let's check on the previous resolutions.

1. NO binge eating.
-Didn't achieve 100% success but will go on. At least i didn't binge eat till stomachache like that
day. =) Am proud already! Step by step ma! ^^

2. Stay away from keropok/junk food.
-90%! I didn't open the cupboard to grab the chips! When mom opened a packet, i ate ONE piece
only. One piece ONLY!! Well, credits to my dad too cos he finished it. If not i think i'll go for the
second, third........piece.

New resolution:
1. Don't say 'haih' so often.

2. Don't think too much.
-This one's kinda hard..it's even hard to judge/measure/whatever whether i did it well. Just put
it here..maybe one day a better me comes back realised i've changed a whole lot better. Will
work hard to that day. =)

Bert Bert!!! Watch over me and see if i'm doing what i said ok?? And today's resolutions also for you de! We jia you together!! =)

When i xiang tong and know what's wrong/missing i go find you and tell you ok? ^^ Shun bian tell you how to solve the problem!! Jia you jia you jia jia you!! =D

2009-08-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

Physics i hate u =(

2009-08-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

I wanted to say something but i forgot after all the chatting and facebook-ing.
What the....i'm pissed at myself. For this, for that, for all these and all that.

Start-from-mid-august resolution:
1. No binge eating no matter how emo or how high.
2. Stay away from all the oh-so unhealthy junk food. GO AWAY keropok!! Don't appear in front of me!!

2 things to do aren't that much rite? I CAN DO IT. If not, i'll never change...for good.

EMO. Late night post usually emo ones rite?

2009-08-16T00:47:00.003+08:00

I thought i'm already EMO enough and always get scolded by Lilooo cos always complaining or being pessimistic or think too much of useless stuff etc etc.....

BUT!

Looks like still got people out there more EMO than me!! Lots of them!!

I'm so worried 'bout our world. We're gonna die soon. CHOI! I know...but....things just get wrong-er and wrong-er....don't you realise??

p.s. I should be considered normal rite? Maybe not as happy and matured and rational and *insert all good adjectives* as some people...but at least....hmm....

p.p.s. I will do nursing. Cos nurse can help people at natural disaster sites. ( Thoughts may change anytime but for now, yea that's what I think.)

2009-08-11T21:31:00.003+08:00

Last year was the Sichuan earthquake. Now it's Taiwan's typhoon, Japan's earthquake.

Even our place has got haze, drought, H1N1 again.....argh...what else??!!

Mama earth is really mad. And i'm not sure what to do....what CAN i do....i'm only a seh kia..living in my own world...

And i hope you don't mind, i just wanna ask a question.
"Can a nurse help much in this kind of time?"

2009-08-07T13:46:00.003+08:00

Diet: Results weren't that good. It worked actually, but a tiiiiiiny bit only. And other people can't even see the difference. So it's like NO result. When thinking of long term tak makan this can't makan that, I'm so gonna die.

So I quit. I opted for a new plan. Eat ALL I want.

It felt so good when I don't need to count on all the calories. Just EAT. Non stop. Until I can't control myself already. The food makes me happy! BUT after eating them, I'm too full and feel si beh uncomfortable. Tummy macam pregnant and macam it's gonna burst. Die also.

What to do? Bo bian lo...nevermind liao la. Should stop thinking already. Memorise Sejarah more important, not thinking what to wear on what dinner what night etc etc.

Dinner...

2009-08-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

After Saturday's photoshoot, we attended SMK Kuching Town's Interact Club Installation Dinner on Sunday evening. Omg I have to admit, it's just one Saturday's morning and Sunday evening and it's enough to kill me. Was so so tired!! Maybe we'd been too 'high' during the photoshoot so I was exhausted. Lols.

I still remember the first time i attended an interact club dinner. It was in 2006, forgot it was St. Co or St. Jo's interact liao...with Kah Ming, Ke Min and Shirley them..too bad Cheng Yi and Alina didn't go. Miss Miri people too. Kesian them, they are currently breathing in the dirtiest air in the whole Malaysia. Must take care o!!!

Ok another few photos on interact dinner =D

Gang! Viv, Yin, Cow, Chee, mememememe! =P

Them. =.=" don'tknow what caption to put bah..

Batu Lintang gang! Mostly.. =D

We are so busy! every weekend got programme^^

2009-08-06T21:42:00.004+08:00

Haih omg omg...now that the flu's everywhere. PLEASE take care everyone. PLEASE. Because..

1. SuPerMan is so near, you don't wanna sit for SPM in the hospital right?? CHOI! Touch wood!!

2. Don't let other people, especially your friends and family to worry about you la. They get emo
ya know...

3. The people around you won't get it too, for you won't pass it to them cos you don't even have
it! Hahax make sense uaa... =P

Ok ok change topic. Wah...everyone's exchanging pendrives these few days, busy saving the photos we took at Ibell. Lols. I've uploaded all (lazy to select one by one anymore haha) in Facebook and not only photos, it seems like everything else is also done in Facebook till I kinda ignored my blog already. Cos it'll be kinda weird to say the same thing and upload the same photos all those in both Facebook and blog bah...BUT not everyone is on Facebook right? Just like last time when i haven't join Fb, I was soooooo outdated 'bout everything (though now still outdated but it's better already k? =P)

Haiya my main point is...I'm gonna upload some photos here. As simple as that. =.="

All of us! 5 Jujur 09 ^^

Some of us girls with teacher =)

Classmates!! Me likey this picture!! Bagus bagus!! =D

Muahahaha...Chee, Lily, me, Pang sweetheart, honey, darling xP

Off to Pizza Hut to celebrate Daniel's birthday!! =) Had a great time! (though exhausted when i returned home hehe)

2009-07-23T17:10:00.002+08:00

I am such such such a very very very so so so LUCKY girl.

Contented. Lesson learnt from novel..haha. Am contented at the moment. (until i feel like breaking all the diet plans. lols)

2009-07-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

Everyone's busy with our own stuff. Too much coming at a time so it's good enough if we all did our own stuff well. No time and strength to care much about other things.

2009-07-13T18:31:00.003+08:00

Ok no need to remind me that I should be studying right now but I just need to get away a tiny while (It's actually the whole afternoon already. Should've forced myself to go pbk).

Something's bugging me! It's bothering me much! Suddenly! I'm wondering whether to sit for the first aid exam this weekend. I obviously didn't learn anything but I thought it might be helpful if I'm gonna study nursing next time. BUT I'm not that sure anymore. I used to have that urge or whatsoever that made me think that I'm SO gonna do nursing and it'll be my only option. BUT it's gone. HILANG. So the first aid exam? Crashing with mock and other stuff...I'm wondering if it's THAT important anymore.

Buat apa susah payah?? Worth it or not? With all the trouble...

P.S I feel like going for pharmarcy liao. All of a suddden.

P.P.S @#$%^&* It's too early to think of all these lar!! Wait till I got my mock results. Maybe
I'll think of washing plates and toilets in restaurants. The "Maimunah course".

2009-07-05T16:05:00.003+08:00

Wooooo.....trials here...sooo near that I can't breathe....lols

To everyone (including myself of course => ),

Jia you jia you jia jia you!!!^^ (learnt from liloo de =P)

Note:
If I emo, ignore me.
If you see me online, scold me.
If you see me daydreaming, wake me up and force me to read something.

Thanks for your cooperation.

Yours faithfully,
Janice~

2009-06-26T20:44:00.003+08:00

就是不可以放纵自己。无论如何都不可以。因为有第一次就一定会有第二次、第三次。。。直到很多很多次。再这样下去的话，以前的努力都会白费掉！！

所以。。。

2009-06-25T21:14:00.003+08:00

Yes, it's finally CONFIRMED.

I PASSED MY PIANO EXAM.
with merit.

See why I used block letters? Wanna hao lien ma..hahax lol! No la..I'm just too happy. Ok now this really does help a lot cos I've really decided to continue the last grade. One more to go and
I'm free.

Thank you EVERYONE. I am so lucky.
but that doesn't mean I won't emo anymore. xP
cos who knows what other problems are going to 'attack' me?
Jia you lo. =D

Here we go again...=D

2009-06-21T18:49:00.003+08:00

I definitely DON'T like reading htmls but i don't know why i keep doing it. Enjoy the leaves lo. =P

Have to go my very own hospital (it's at 7th mile, fyi) check up liao. xP

Sweetheart!! Let's skip school again this fri!! hahax..as if!!

Oh ya! I'm not done with the blogroll all those yet, obviously..hehe.^^

18 JUNE 2009

2009-06-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

PIANO EXAM'S FINALLY OVER.

*cries* I just can't believe it.

It was like a dream. I was struggling, emo-ing, worrying, complaining.....but still, it's...it's...argh!! I don't know!! If I pass I'll continue. As simple as that.

My mind's still wandering, haven't come back to maths workbook which we have to hand in tomorrow. Don't even mention bm essay and add maths homework.

Well....no more pinafore. Back to the grey skirt. What to do...I'll have to keep fit all the time lo cos it really annoys me when it's oh-so-TIGHT and i feel like the skirt's gonna burst any second. So must KEEP FIT!! It feels better when I can 'turn' the skirt around, front to back, back to front. Lols. -_-"

p.s I'm feeling like wanna change layout again..ops! Everytime I gave this kind of layout a chance cos they're real cute BUT I just can't live without the blogroll and people can't leave any comments. Macam mana ni?? Tengok duluk lah...

Random eh?

2009-06-14T23:25:00.005+08:00

Yea tomorrow's school. And everything's coming back. They just don't stop there. Syllabus's like...won't end one. And that means we'll have new stuff into our brains every single day and we've got HOMEWORK and we still have to remember the old ones at the same time. And then here comes tests and exams. Then we'll be suffocated again. That's what it's all about.

I'm wondering if we or rather I don't go to U, what can I do? I have totally no idea. I don't know...just random thoughts. Cos I'm curious when I see the young celebs..they are actors, singers..it's like they're working already at our age..yea it's a golden opportunity cos not everyone has the chance to be celeb but what if the audience don't like you anymore in like..say 3 years time? And your contract ended. What are you gonna do? Go back to U? But you weren't in school for 3 years, isn't it hard to remember all those facts and formulas again? Will there be lots of vacancies at 'backstage'? Like...err...I don't know la! Maybe they can work at the 'back'?

I don't know...maybe they still study or what...I'm just curious bah..anyone knows any celebs? Tell me a bit about their lives =P .

So yea, school's tomorrow and yes, it's 11 something and I haven't gone to bed.

HELP!!!!

2009-06-13T19:15:00.003+08:00

What is wrong with facebook o?? Why they disabled my account???? Hey I don't have anything 'bad' at my account lei!! No pornography, no violence, no nothing!! I'm guai ok??!! Apa hal ni? How to get my account back?? =( sob.......

2009-06-09T22:05:00.001+08:00

Wait arr....i'm dealing with the layout thing...AGAIN..you know lar...i'm noob at this...

Don't worry you didn't get into the wrong blog =P

Home Alone 10000

2009-06-09T12:14:00.002+08:00

I don't know how many times already so just put 10000 xP

Yaya...Maimunah home alone lagi. Tapi not bad ba, I dapat the whole house, dapat buat whatever I like. Take saya punya time. Tapi satu perkara saja, I tak tau bawak kereta so tak dapat pergi beli barang la....

Actually I mau cook for dad but he's not coming back for lunch..dan rumah ini tak ada vege. Mum cooked all the vege in the fridge before she went off. So Tuesday night we had this vege dinner. Cabbage+long beans+spring onion all campur jadi one dish. -_-" and another dish is bayam. Lols. How healthy.

AND TAK ADA APPLES LAGI!!! Semalam saya dah makan last one..Si lo...macam mana live without apples??!!

So I ingin make full use of the home alone time. But it's already Tuesday..hope I can at least do SOMETHING in these few days... =)

Peace semua orang!! =P Maimunah dah learn sikit English ni!! ^^

2009-06-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

Exactly 10 days till piano exam. Jia you. A 'pass' will do.

Good Luck!!

2009-05-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

Good luck to my jimui. Everyone's here to support you, all your friends and dear and jimui and heng dai and the 'promise' group and so on.......though I don't really know who they are. But they surely are Someone in your heart.

Everything will be alright, tomorrow will be fine.

Updates again...

2009-05-29T23:07:00.002+08:00

Wao....looks like besides updates on my own life...I have nothing more to post ho?? Argh...whatever. Just post whatever.

Monthly test ended. Duh...like nobody knows...

Holidays has just started. Duh...we all know le la!!

2 weeks plus to PIANO EXAM.
3 weeks to chinese week.
3 weeks to first aid exam.
4 weeks to first trial.

5 months to SuPerMan.

Argh.

I wanna do well in trial. Can I? Maaaaaybe gua..I'm not so sure.
And IF, I said IF I passed my grade 7, should I continue to grade 8? If I'm gonna continue, it means I can't stop TOTALLY. Piano lessons still have to go on.. But my SuPerMan leh? But it's the last grade to go too.

Ok why update all problem stuff, emo stuff? Ish. Let's smile no matter what. =D

2009-05-27T14:17:00.003+08:00

Haiyooooooooooooooo....why like that?? Can don't like that ma??!! T.T

The papers are either hard or I careless or I didn't revise that part which came out. Swt -_-"
But it's over liao..I mean almost over liao...so don't care.

Holidays are coming but I'm not as excited. Holidays haven't start but my timetable almost FULL le la...HAVEN'T include STUDY yet hor...you say die or not?? And I think I'll have transport problem to go here and there. Haih..I also got today ho? <- Translate to bc

And what the tuut is wrong with my msn??!! Can't sign in all the time..my nyawa arr...

Of skipping school ( explain to my sweetheart honey and darling) -_-"

2009-05-23T15:35:00.004+08:00

People, fast fast go Padini!!!!! Got 50% 70% tees!!! Si beh cheap!!! Simple and nice (my type..don't know if it's your type la)

Ok back to blogging. Wuu wuu.....seemed like many people missed me hor? Haiya...I shy shy la...so paiseh...I skipped school one day already like that =)

My sweetheart bo..called me but don't want talk to me one..only honey talk to me.
I will write a letter ok? I didn't ponteng. At least my parents are ok with me skipping school for ONE day niaaaa...no big deal ma..it was Friday some more..

I just think i'm stressed out and I believed by skipping school for ONE day niaa could make things better (It did). I really need to relax (I think). And I'm actually glad I did. I think I'll end up in Hospital Sentosa if I don't 'pamper' myself a bit. Hey I was still hesitating on that morning ok?? I was convincing myself to get ready and go to school but it just...just...i don't know...just don't wanna go la. Then I was standing outside my parents bedroom, still hesitating..and my mum opened the door. Told her and dad i don't wanna go to school and they said ok (I know they're ok with that lar..as long as I don't skip school once a week or something). Then...then no more la. Like that la!! That's it!

p.s. I still went to tuition yesterday afternoon, so, not that bad, right?? =)
I really got my parents permission o! Not that I was crying and shouting on the floor
"I don't wanna go to school!" =P