Pre-19

I still have one more week as an 18-year-old.

Yea it's always during these kinda time that i realised time flies, and my one year of life is gone, just. like. that.

One can only be 18 years old for once in their life. And sadly, i think i didn't do anything more, as in something....that is out of my comfort zone? That is very unforgettable(in a good way of course lol)? That i could very proudly tell my grandchildren(if only i have of course LOL)?

But i'm just a normal person. I am so conventional i rarely step out of my comfort zone. RARELY. Don't ask me why though, i'm not sure too.

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Okay enough of all of that. Pre-19-year-old Janice is telling me to stop continue rambling and self-apologising.

Pre 19-year-old Janice decides to think differently. :)

I think, there's nothing wrong even if i've not done anything BIG when i'm 18. Well, i still have one week if i really wanted to do something. But forget about that. I think it's ok. Because:

1. At least i lived. and at least i go to college. Though i might not give my very best in academic, i still haven't failed any paper.

2. I'm just a normal person, come on. Yea i might have BIG thoughts sometimes and dreams can come true but hey, be realistic. When you didn't work hard enough, don't expect miracles. I'm not Blair Waldorf, nevermind if i don't go to Ivy Leagues or can't be in Forbes as one of the most powerful/richest/influential person in the world.

But one thing i have to do for myself. For so long i couldn't get myself to study harder than i do now. One thing i must convince myself, that is, getting As is not everything, but not getting As, i couldn't live my dreams either.

Oh goshhh. I'm turning 19.