I was just thinking,
maybe, just maybe, i tried too hard in asking myself to try too hard. Get it? get it??

Maybe i didn't even realised that i didn't like it at all but i somehow convinced myself that i do and wanted it all these while. Maybe i took things for granted. Not everything applies to the if u like it, it becomes easier and u can do it well 'concept'.

Decisions, are hard to make. Damnnnnnnn hard.